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01.14.2003 @ 1:20 am

yay it's not monday anymore.

today started off rather well. and then went downhill from there, and i think i got to the bottom of the hill. nothing overly bad actually happened, i am just in a bad mood, and i feel like whining about it. even though i should probably be working on something more productive, like the short story i started before my 2 1/2 hour nap. or reading the script of the play that i am supposed to be finding costumes for. which was a fun source of panic today, when my crew decided to actually ask me what we were supposed to be doing. i swear, people should really stop putting me in charge of things that i don't know how to do.

*pout* there should really be people for me to talk to online right now. i mean, it's only 1:30... or i'm just in a pathetic mood, and have no human value on my own, and need to feel that someone else wants me around for me to be good for anything, and i should really just go to bed, and hope that this feeling is gone tomorrow...

okay, so stupid human story of the moment. so there's this girl that goes to my school (who, incidentally, i have hated since the first time i talked to her. she just seems stupid.) we've had quite a few conversations about my labret, and the lack of pain it caused me. and she in turn, talked about how she wanted one, but had a fear of the whole pain/needle factor. so last week, she decided to finally get it over with. and pierced it herself. with an earring. idiot. then she took it out, which i thought was the smartest thing she's ever done. but today, it was back, and she talked to me. and then i got lumped being like her by the creative writing marker i don't like, and i'm happy i generally don't have to talk to her. i hope cora's face gets infected and they have to amputate her lip.....anyway...the moral of this story, is clearly, that i took out my labret because i can, and now my face feels naked, so i'll have to put it back in as soon as this is written. (if that wasn't an obvious moral...)

tomorrow is tuesday. i seem to remember last tuesday being a cool day. i don't remember why, but there was a whole series of deadjournal comments on it. (yeah...i have far too many journals. apparently i like to write about myself far too much.) i wrote theory tests today, and screwed up vocab words, and couldn't for the life of me remember what a chromatic scale was. so i'm guessing i'll get about 89%. yay choir.
'abused'
j englishman


it's not the way youthink that turns me on
the last thing i wanna do is listen to you talk
well i don't wanna know what you're about
i just want your dirty little mind and your dirty little mouth
i'm not the kind of boy to kiss and tell
but the things i'd like to do with you
i really do well
so call me just another pretty face
who's been a bad bad boy
so put me in my place

coz i just wanna be
i just wanna be amused
well i just wanna be
i just wanna be abused

so call me by somebody else's name
tell me that i oughta be, gotta be ashmamed
the humiliation really gets me off
and i don't care if youcum
just as long as you're on top

coz i just wanna be
i just wanna be amused
well i just wanna be
i just wanna be abused
coz i just wanna be
i just got to be used
well i just wanna be
i just wanna be abused

you can fuck with me head
leave marks on my neck
just as long as i'm ties to your bed
ru your nails down my back
be sure to leave tracks
to match my emotional scabs

coz i just wanna be
i just wanna be amused
well i just wanna be
i just wanna be abused
said i just wanna be
i just gotta be amused
well i just wanna be
i just wanna be abused

feel like gettin used, ya
feel like gettin used, ya
feel like gettin used
oh...and a little note. each of those stars up there are a link. the guestbook is one of them. just in case you were wondering.


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