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the arrival of winter is upon us... ...snow can wait i forgot my mittens...okay....it's official, winter has arrived...it starts slowly, creeping from summer, slowly into long-sleeved shirt weather...then to sweater weather...then you soon have to add a hat....and then before you know it, the rest of the country is all pretty and winter-like, and the extended forecast here calls for rain...for 7 days...*sigh* (and yeah i know...i complained all summer that we never got any rain....and now that the rain is supposed to come, i am whining about that too...) never satisfied... ...we fear what we see in the distance...ugh...today was not good...but for a day that sucked, i have ended up to be in a surprisingly good mood...i forgot to do my resume for acting...which in-and-of itself really doesn't sound like a big deal, but i was kind of pissed off about it, because i think that it's making me seem really really irresponsible to ms wall, considering that i am in 2 courses with her, and haven't handed a single thing in on time all year...aside from that, school went well though...presented my lovely model in stagecraft (it's only a week late...but i am excused for not having it in last class because i was sick....i really don't know who told that to all of my teachers who i thought were going to kick my ass when i showed up on wednesday, but instead they were all incredibly sympathetic....do i really look that horrible?) ...another day is going by...i'm thinking about you all the time...i earned a whole quarter at lunch today :)...but i probably would've done it for free, because i am in a good mood today...cam wanted me to buy his lunch for him, and then go back to the tech lab and deliver it to him, since he was afraid of ms. wall kicking his ass for not coming to stagecraft...so i did, because, as i said, i was in a good mood...there are so many other days where i would've just laughed at him and made him chance it...but it turned out to be kind of a good experience...when i went back down there to take him his food, at least half of the people in there said hi, and seemed like they were at least marginally interested in talking to me...if catherine hadn't been waiting for me with soup, i probably would've just stayed down there for lunch....*laughs* i never ever thaought that i would want to hang out in the tech lab, nevermind have people there be nice to me....goes to show just how little i actually know about people... ...i can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful...so unloved for someone so fine...on the way home, i stopped off and bought some blank cds from future shop...and then my day turned to shit...yay for losing my bus pass...it's the 7th...i have no idea how i manage to do this...in any event, the only problem i have now, would be replacing my go card...surprisingly, both of my parents took it rather well (yes, i actually remembered to call my mom tonight...it was rather funny...i kept her on the phone just chattinga bout random things for a good 20-30 minutes after she said she had to go to sleep....) now the only thing i have to consider before i go to bed, is weather or not i want to get $40 from my mom to "get a new bus pass"....my dad said that he was fine with it if i did that, and he would buy me a new one...but i feel guilty about that tonight, so i don't think i will...even though christmas is coming, and i could use the extra money...today it feels wrong ...don't be so hard on yourself...you can't get better 'til you get worse...i think i am starting to fall asleep sitting here...for some reason all i have been doing this week is sleeping...well...no so much, but i have been going to bed rather early...not that the extra sleep seems to be helping at all, but i don't really think it's having any adverse effects either...except maybe the trick-or-treating dream i had about shannon...that was too weird...
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