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watch yourself. if you're not careful, i may UNBIRTH you! i am so incredibly stressed out for some reason. actually, it's more like every single reason you can think of, and then you remember something extra and add that to the list to. but most of my stress reasons are probably really lame, and people with actual stress issues would want to kick my ass for them. i actually counted and figured it out today, and between the 21st of this month, and the 6th of january when we go back to school, there are about 3 or 4 days that i don't already have something to do. i hate that. it stresses me out just to think of that. and then when i go back to school, everyone else will be all relaxed and all'ooo i just had a break..." and i will be all "ack. break=stress." and i will forget how to spell my own name or something. and then, after my whole feeling of motivation this weekend, and my whole, let't set goals attitude, i did absolutely nothing at all today. i didn't even go to my creative writing seminar block. i am so lame. first block was ta. and then second/third block i slacked in the library, and also hilaire and i wandered. then after lunch, i was working in the sewing room, and wandering as well. today was also really lame in the sense that i was all weird and stalker-ish without intending to be. and now i am all obsessive over it, and think that he hates me due to the fact that he didn't really say hi to me or anything afterschool, when i stopped by his locker and was talking to katie. whatever. i hate him too. i attempted to decide this earlier, and i don't really know how well that is going to work out. *sigh* AND i am just stressed. i have no idea why, and i can't really think of any valid things that i have to be actually freaking out about, but i am anyway. and then i get the really werid thing that i do where everything i have to say comes out in one giant huge long stream of words, that would be really similar to me typing, and not leaving spaces between any words, but breaking them down into paragraphs still (i do have to breathe sometimes...) i'm still not dome my christmas shopping. christmas is wayyy too soon. this sucks ass. now i am definetely not going to school on wednesday. i know that i will be missing classes, and important ones at that. if i was going to not go to school to finish shopping, i really should've done it today. when i have no classes. but no, that would make sense. and now i am going to be missing important things that i really shouldn't be...and and...AUGHGHHHHHHH.
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