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wishing it was over... ...did you close your eyes...just to see the night..rush on by?this is sad. it's 7:38, and i am thinking of going to bed already. shawn michaels is having his first match on raw in almost 5 years, and that is the only thing that is keeping me here. that and i got bored at some time last week, and started reading anthony's old diary...from the beginning...seeing as people don't update often enough to amuse my reading needs. ...the difference between us is negative one...the math is simple...i don't think i am actually tired though. i just want to sleep so that today will be over. i don't see the rest of the evening as being particularly interesting. either that, or i actually am tired, and just trying to convince myself that i will actually not be missing too much if i go to sleep now. which is actually the reason i hate to sleep. not because the act of sleeping is less than enjoyable, because i like sleep as much as the next person. it just feels like there is so much more that i could be accomplishing if i wasn't sleeping... ...i'm not...not sure...not too sure how it feels...to handle everyday...this afternoon, as i wandered home on my 45 minute walk, which i must say, i have rather gooten used to in the few months since school started, and i don't mind it at all anymore. gives me time to wind down and actually expend some sort of physical energy before i arrive home and stare at my computer screen. and time to think. for some reason, i think best if i am cold and moving. this concept is a mysetery to me, but i think i'll stop questioning it, and just go with it. it's probably something along the same lines of why the sky is blue, or why i like to sleep with a minimum of three blankets, and keep my bedroom at about 10 degrees. just one of those things. anyway, there were thoughts, and i was intending on writing about them. but then i became more focused on where they came from, and can't properly form words to describe them. so i am going to go and talk to the exceptionally odd chad instead. because that is clearly better than attempting to think about what i was thinking before.
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