the chemicals between us...
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01.12.2003 @ 10:23 pm
well...today i spent money. i bought a new hat that is wool, and i will consequently wear about 3 times. and then i spent an inordinate amount of money on a belt, but it's the coolest belt ever, and i will wear it often. even though it cost 3 times as much as the hat, i think it'll get used more. that and it'll soon be too warm for me to wear a toque anyway. it does score points for being all stripe-y and rainbow-like though. but the belt is black, and studded with red stars. i love it, and the thought of showing it off tomorrow, is what's propelling me towards getting up in the morning.
i don't understand how people invent science. i mean, i can
almost understand scientific concepts when they are already laid out and proved for me, but it really makes me wonder the kind of person it takes to invent these sorts of concepts. is it a skill that someone can learn? or is it something you're just born with? maybe there's some sort of science faerie that flitters around, and simply makes us think that actual humans came up with this stuff? i really don't get it. i also don't know how well i am going to do with this whole chemistry thing. it seemed like it was going well in the beginning, but now it's just becoming tedious. wow, now isn't that the story of my life...
i feel so...numb today. it's one of those moods where i am not necessarily up or down, i'm sort of in the middle, where nothing at all matters, or is important. it sucks, because it is filled with a lot of complaining, and planning, and nowhere near enough accomplishment. this mood scares me, because it allows me to rationally consider the fact that i have a whole shitload of work to get done, and that if i don't change something soon, then i will never graduate. which will suck, because i am tired of school.
*sigh*
'falling away from me'
korn
hey, i'm feeling tired
my time is gone today
you flew with suicide
sometimes, that's okay
hear what others say
i'm here standing hollow
falling away from me
falling away from me
day, is here fading
that's when i would say
i flew with suicide
sometimes kill the pain
i can always say
"it's gonna be better tomorrow"
falling away from me
falling away from me
beating me down
beating me, beating me
down, down
into the ground
screaming so sad
beating me, beating me
down, down
into the ground
(falling away from me)
it's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
it's lost and can't be found
(falling away from me)
it's spinning round and round
(falling away frome me)
so down.
beating me down
beating me, beating me
down, down
into the ground
screaming so sad
beating me, beating me
down, down
into the ground
pressing me, they won't go away
so i pray, go away
it's falling away from me
beating me down
beating me, beating me
down, down
into the ground
screaming so sad
beating me, beating me
down, down
into the ground