mmm....friday.
<< - >>
01.18.2003 @ 1:00 am

ow. my leg hurts. it's one of those evil muscle cramps that happens to my calf, and then i want to amputate my leg. not that that would make it easier to walk or anything...

today was actually a good day. and i was in a great mood. and we didn't have to stay after school to build stuff. it was just a really good day, that now, seems far too long to have all existed in one day...i filmed the last scene for my music video first block...which really only took about 15 minutes. and then i wasted the rest of the block away, by visitin catherine in math, and fighting with rob to keep his hat. and i lost. but then i stole ryan's hat, which is cooler and fits my head a lot better.

then i helped ryan do his library research worksheets for english during second block, because we talked and stuff last night, and i unloaded all of my school stress on him, and he said that he was going to attempt to get me to not slack and not be wandering the halls. yeah, that is so not going to happen. and then after that there was choir, and we got another new song about god. yay for the jesus music.

this afternoon, i cleaned the theatre with jessie and drew during 4th block, and then i hung out in acting 12 last block, because i had nothing better to do. it was cool, because i got to run their rehersal, and the play they are doing is really funny. then i was undressing jason on the bed. good times.

then, hil gave me a ride home, and we stopped at the mall first, and picked up hot hot heat tix, and i got new underwear. and then i was fully intending on doing homework tonight, since i am hanging out with ryan tomorrow, and then going to see wrestling with meg on suday...but then, i watched mallrats. and then meg called, and i talked to her for a bit. and then i had a nap, and was awoken by the horribly evil leg cramp of doom. so now i'm here, and updating, and talking to people on msn.

and i just realized that i have probably been rambling on about absolutely nothing for a while now, and i should probably delete all of it. or at least re-read it, and edit. but, i'm lazy and it's nearly 2am, so i am not going to bother.

i was all weirded out earlier by the fact that nick wouldn't give me a hug today, and i thought he was mad at me or something...but as it turns out, he's not, he just doesn't hug people. which i still can't quite wrap my head around...it just doesn't make sense to me. that still doesn't explain why he's been strange towards me all week, but i don't know if now is the time to bring that up. because it's late, and i think i want to go to bed.
'invisible'
static in stereo


i'll take the blame
but not your shame
swallow your ignorance
then spit it back again
don't be afriad - don't feel undafe
choke on your arrogance
then cough it up and swallow it again
here's yet another one - empty and comfortable
beautiful/insincere
just make you go away
i wish i was invisible
i wish i was anywhere but here
i wish i was invisible
i wish i was anyone but me
you're so alone - your tongue made out of stone
hey, cry me a river from your stolen throne
you play pretend - forgotten friend
choke on my enemy
then chew you up and swallow you again
exposed and fraudulent - naked/ingenuine
i'll forget but i won't forgive
just make you go away



.