merry holidays, and all those sort of belated greetings.
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12.28.2002 @ 6:37 pm

okay. i'm home and all that. but probably not really, seeing as i haven't really talked to my mom yet, and she will probably want to steal me away from my house as much as possible.

i'm considerably less stressed and cynical than i was before xmas (not that that is saying much...i haven't grown a new personality or anything...) i still have the somewhat looming stress of ohmygodihavetodohomework but i am trying to push that as far into the back of my brain as possible, and i will deal with it the weekend before school starts. sound like fun? yeah, i thought so too...

xmas was lovely as can be i suppose, considering my hatred of the commercialization of it all. i got some useless gifts, that will probably never be removed from their boxes, and then i got some computer stuff from my dad. i haven't seen my mom yet, but she usually manages to think up more inventive things that aren't on the xmas list she harasses me for. but then manage to still be cool and all. not that i really care, i just dislike the idea of people wasting their money on things that i am never EVER going to use...

the whole dinner thing was pretty cool, 14 people in total, and then after dinner i played guitar with my uncle for a bit, and sort of learned how to play 'losing my religion' by REM....but i still kind of suck at trying to switch from anything to an F...i will get this though.

and then after that, we (my cousin leanne, and my cousin charlene and her boyfriend mike) decided we were going to see LotR...at 9:30 of course, because no one i know ever wants to see this movine in the daytime....but it was fucking spectacular, and i liked it more than the first one.

then i came home today, and that is about the extent of my entire holiday. i talked to meaghan for a bit, and she bitched at me for going to see LotR without her, and i told her i really didn't care, and that it wasn't the first time that i was going to see it without her. it's jsut that i actually did get to see it this time...

now, i should probably go and find something that sort of resembles dinner, and give my mom a call and let her know that i am still alive and stuff. hope everyone else's holiday was joyous and merry!
'done wrong'
ani difranco


the wind is ruthless
the trees shake angry fingers at the sky
the people hunch their shoulders
hold their collars over their ears and run by
it's a cold rain
it's a hard rain
like the kind you find in a song
i guess that makes me the jerk with the heartache
here to sing to you about how i been done wrong

i am sitting, watching
out the window of a coffee shop
and i'm waiting, waiting
waiting for it to let up
i am rocking like a cradle
warming my hands with the cup in between
i am leaning over the table
holding my face over the steam

and before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
i'd like to know

like how could you do nothing
and say, i'm doing my best
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest
how could you beg me to stay
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as i agreed

it just all slips
away so slowly
you don't even notice till you've lost a lot
i've been like one of those zombies
in vegas
pouring quarters into a slot
and now i'm tired
and i am broke
and i feel stupid and i feel used
and i'm at the end of my little rope
and i am swinging back and forth
about you

and before it gets so cold
that the rain turns to snow
there's just a couple things
i'd like to know

like how could you do nothing
and say, i'm doing my best
how could you take almost everything
and then come back for the rest
how could you beg me to stay
reach out your hands and plead
and then pack up your eyes and run away
as soon as i agreed



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