sleep....
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11.09.2002 @ 1:11 am

....do you wanna kiss?...you go first...
well, it's finally the weekend, although it really doesn't feel that way...i have managed to continue my habit of falling asleep really early on a friday night, even though i actually did sleep this week...i did the whole smart thing of lying down on my bed, and telling myself that i wouldn't fall asleep...and then that it would only be for a few minutes...and then just hid under the blanket, because i was too lazy to actually get up and turn the light off, and had a nap....then there's the disorienting moment when you wake up, and try and figure out if it is 9pm, or 9am...give up on that and sleep for another 2 hours...
...buy the sky...and sell the sky...and lift your arms up to the sky...
wow....i got my bank statement in the mail today....i just read over my interac purchases...it's sad where i spend my money....$18 at off the wall (underwear...that's actually a necessity....go me with buying somehting useful)...then there's the 3 7-11 purchases, 2 starbucks purchases....one at the shell (slurpees? i think so)...and that's it...wow i spend my money on sad things....it frightens me that in a month, i can spend just over $30 on crap....*sigh* i really need to learn better money-management skills...
...and i do a number on myself...and all that i thought to be...
i have a really weird feeling...about what i don't know...it's just one of those cautionary (is that a word?...well, if it's not, it should be)-type feelings....i really wish i knew what it was warning me of...it's rather unsettling trying to figure it out by going through all the decisions i could possibly make in the next little while, and considering the options, and which one is going to be the wrong one....knowing me, i am going to pick it anyway...
'morphine'
moist


it never happened
it never will
it's not a memory
there's no way to prive this isn't real

you're not a victim
i'm not to blame
you've seen my honest smile
my pretty face
and all my gentle ways
never happened
never

she knows it's a sin
force him down
force her down again
it's a sin
force him down
force her down again

if you play quietly
i'll let you go
if you play quietly
no one here will ever ever know
never happened
never

she knows it's a sin
force him down
force her down again
it's a sin
force him down
force her down again
no
oh no again
no
drive me oh
drive
drive me again
oh no

so please remmeber me
i never meant to tell you lies
so please remember me
the one who stroked your hair
and dried your eyes
i never wanted this to be
i never wanted this to be
i never wanted this to be so oh
i never wanted more
i never told you lies
i never wanted this to be
i i i'm just a boy
never wanting

it's a sin
force him down
force her down again
it's a sin
force him down
force her down again

oh who will stay here
who will stay here with me
who will you be wanting
wanting want more
this time who will you be
i wanted



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