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do a dance ...she prays for the miracle of radio, but there's just the rain's soft staccato...and to think that wednesday is usually the worst day of the week for me....so not true this week. so far, today has been the best day of the week. except that alex was at set building today, and i find him to be an asshole most of the time. like today, how we were being completely sarcastic and making fun of his completely crooked cutting job, and he had a fit, and then told me if i couldn't do it any better, then he would have absolutely no respect for me at all. which i don't think he did to begin with, but whatever. i have no patience for people who are assholes simply because they think they are better than everyone. but then he left earlier than i did, because he's clearly not as dedicated and cool as me, jessie, drew, meg, adam and sean. and then i climbed on top of our insanely cool platform that we're building, even though we're not completely done with the bracing and stuff (it's 6' off the ground). but i promised ms wall i wouldn't die, because she wasn't a fan of that whole idea, and then i kept my promise. although i happen to think that the chair stacked on top of the desk that i used to get up there was a little more dangerous than then platform itself... ...and i wanted to be all you need...somehow here is gone...other than the whole excitement of building, and using power tools and the like, today was rather unproductive. i spent first block slacking. first with cat in the math gh and then with rob in the english gh. whereupon i was forced to listen to his music, a fantastic range including nine inch nails, papa roach, pink, christina aguilera, and hed(pe). then 2nd block i had acting, and the guy that i'm supposed to be doing a scene with decided not to show up, so i had a moment of panic, because we were supposed to perform tomorrow, and haven't done our blocking yet. so i went and talked to ms wall, and she was unimpressed with his lack of attendance, and told me that we didn't have to perform tomorrow. and then that i couldn't slack in the theatre for the whole block, so i went and moved 2x4s out of her car, and then slacked for the rest of the block. ...tell me all of your secrets...3rd block entailed the remainder of the filming for my music video, except not, because i realize that i added another scene, and now i have to film something else so that there is some semblance of continuity in my plot line. meaning i have to find my actors tomorrow. but i let them film semi-bloopers today, and it was pretty fun. until mark started hitting on me. that was scary. he's insanely difficult to work with, and i've been arguing with him this entire project. he actually started calling me mom. it was scary, and reminded me why i don't hang out with a lot of people who are younger than me. except i just realized that that statement is entirely untrue, as almost all of my friends are younger than i am. but none of them are 15. whatever. there was really no point to that, except that drama 10s are immature. end of story. ...and after tonightwhen these things fade from sight i might get you through...then there was choir this afternoon, and it was joyous fun. except that i left my waterbottle in the band room. so i stole ms wall's keys while we were set building and went and got it. we also got giftwrap stuff that was supposed to come before xmas and didn't. so i left that in rob's locker...and then i think it's in meg's locker now....seeing as i gave my locker away. then i stole rob's hat, and proved that i can easily break dress code and not get in trouble, and wandered around in my tank top and a hat. i actually went and talked to ms wall in the socials GH, and she didn't realize what i was wearing until about 5:30 tonight, when she sent me, drew and meaghan outside to throw cardboard away. ...i wrote this letter in my head...'cause so many things were left unsaid...and now, it's late and i no longer feel at all motivated to do any sort of homework or anything. it would be a whole lot easier if i actually got stuff done when i was at school. then i could totally slack off when i was at home. but since i don't do anything no matter where i am, this is not going to be pretty. ms wall actually brought to my attention that i am taking 9 courses tonight. i didn't realize that before, and now the task of getting all this work done, and actually graduating seems like an even bigger challenge. i think i am just destined to be a loser and never finish high school. *sigh* and i thought that i was in a good mood today.... ...hang on to tomorrow because to night the stars revolt...and since it was wednesday today, i actually watched tv, and then i ended up seeing a group of midgets race an elephant to see who could drag an airplane faster. it was hilariously funny, and then i felt rather guilty for laughing at it. then, i was flipping through the channels, and ended up on the god station, watching the music countdown. how this happened, i really don't know, because the first band that was on, 38th parallel reminded me of linkin park, only not as good. and then there was the jesus version of s club 7, and then meaghan and i decided that we are totally going to hell for making fun of the jesus music. as if there was any doubt of it before, that totally finalized it. ...all she said one little trick she said but it was lost on me...anyway, there is sawdust in my lungs, and i can't stop coughing. so i think, that sleep would be the next logical step in the events of my life. except that i will probably find something else to do on my way there...like the dishes that i haven't really been doing this week.... 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