panic
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11.03.2002 @ 3:16 pm

...you piss me off...you fucking jerk...you get on my nerves...
arg...i had a whole entry all nice and ready to be updated....but noooo...*kicks IE* so now to spite IE, i am writing this in netscape, as much as i hate netscape with a passion, because it is all ugly and deformed looking *pouts*
...i've been frantically piling up sandbags against the floodwaters of fatigue and insecurity...
*sigh* i am in mass panic mode right now...i have been so insanely overloaded with crap to do this week...and still didn't get it all done....i hate that....because now i still feel all defective for not being able to do everything....i, in fact, should'nt even be here now, as i still haven't managed to get myself to start my model yet...i am at the point where i have so many things that i feel i should be doing, i have just sat down and stopped becasue i am not sure at all where i should start...
......i'm broken in pieces and you might never know the way...the kitchen is easy...and i won't be the first to say...and i might be over...
new design...yay for GIR!! but uh...due to my intense laziness, and general lack of time and motivation, i didn't make it...chad did :)...it is rather spiffy, and much better than the last thing i attempted to make....
...waiting for somehting else...waiting to exist...
i need a longer weekend...*contemplates just not gettin up tomorrow*...my grandma called today and bitched me out for not calling her recently...i don't think she gets that i haven't been doing anything recently...at least that is the way at feels...it seems like i have done nothing, yet haven't stopped all week...i am panicking now just thinking about the fact that i will have to go to school tomorrow and talk to markers, and be bitched at for not having work in for marks cutoff....*sigh*
'superhero girl'
eve6
well here is me on tradgedy
i always want what's out of reach
she pulls dyed black hair back and sighs
fuck that night out with the guys
i never get a word in with them anyway
the telephone doesn't scare me anymore
you're home and i am here alone my dear
always stupidly sarcastic my hyper spastic superhero girl
so break the bruised monogamy
and let him fade to memory
your erotic wet atomic eyes
keep reoccuring in my mind
do me a favour please
and touch your lips to mine



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