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tomorrow might not come if i don't let it ...i wanna be more than a pretty girl...i wish....for a great many things actually....i spent a great deal of time tonight just staring at a blank page, trying to get my scropbook for stagecraft done....unfortunately, i couldn't find a way to get the ideas from my head, onto the paper...it's incredibly frustrating, considering that it is already late, and i really don't want to have to go in and attempt to explain why it isn't done...i will probably cry, and i don't cry in front of people....i also know for a fact that my model will be late, and will definetely not be in by thursday....tomorrow, i have to do a hang and focus for our production with the drama 10s...and neither meaghan nor chelsea is going to be able to make it, so i will be there by myself, knowing nothing at all about lighting...from the looks of it, tomorrow will be worse than today... ...hey....what's the point of this?...i found my hats...well...not the one that needs to be fixed...but the other two that i love...and my bootlegger sweater i had all but forgotten about...theni wrote in my paper journal....for 3 pages...and will probably write twice that if i ever get back to bed...i should make hot chocolate...and light candles, and read jann's book...it's sitting beside me, staring me down, just willing me to drop everything else and devote my entire night to reading it... ...and what did you want...and what did you need...and what if we all came clean...i'm questioning life...i'm questioning you...and what if we all came through...sitting on my last bus home tonight, which is rather quiet and never full, i saw one of the most apalling things ever...i hate seeing this, and unfotunately it happens far too often...the sound of sirens...and then someone honking because they are in a hurry, and people have stopped to allow the ambulance to pass....i mean really, what is that important that you are in such a hurry to get to? someone else's life could be on the line...imagine...you are so worried about getting home in time to watch survivor, or make those phone calls to family or friends...possibly to cook a meal....and you are too selfish to wait the extra 2 minutes...2 minutes that can mean the world to someone else...someone else who isn't worried about being on time...whose only worry is about having more time...it's sad to see that people are so focused on themselves that they cannot even pause for a moment to let an emergency vehicle with sirens going pass by....
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