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beauty but me...pretty. go figure. i never have days like this. i mean, it's usually hard to think i look good in any way when i put effort into it...nevermind when i don't try. i didn't even see a mirror until after lunch. meaghan was nice enough to run lines with me during stagecraft. (yes, even though i am performing tomorrow, i was still getting stuck on a few of them.) and i was sitting facing the mirror for nearly an entire block. maybe i just like the mirror in the acting 12 room... but regardless, i looked up, and was actually content with myself. ...meet me on the east side...take you on a slow ride...meet me up in hollywood...girl you know you really should....mmmm song quotes. haven't had those in a long time...mostly wanted to add this one, because it reminds me of catherine...and summer. and i dunno. it's a fun song. i'm making a new cd at the moment...at least, trying to. i'm in the mood to make a whole bunch, for other people...it's just that when i start doing that, i never know what anyone will like. and then i end up giving up, because i don't have the patience to figure it out. i also have a terrible habit of making a bunch of mixes in the same span of time, and they all end up having the same songs on them...like...greenwheel. 'breathe' is on three or four different mixes of mine. and 'center of the world' by dakona. i dunno. i'm in the mood for slow and depressing music lately...but i'm not sad...or numb...for the moment anyway. ...i just want someone to say to me...i'll always be there when you wake...i'm getting sick of my nails. they're getting cut soon. so that they're all the same length. and shortish. maybe i'll play my guitar for a week or so...or maybe i'll just be able to type normally again. although, i did find that i own a bottle of gold nail polish, in case i want to just keep my "crack nail" i can paint it gold as corey suggested. i think nail polish should dry instantly. someone invent that, ok? ...we emerged from youth all wide-eyed like the rest...there's 8 weeks of school left. that's it. i'm not too big a fan of that. i mean, on one hand, i am glad that it's nearly over...but...i have 11 english guides to complete. it's really not as much as it sounds like...but, i haven't really been doing so good with the whole actually working thing, and i'm a little scared that i won't be able to get it done. ms wall drove me home after floor painting this afternoon, and effectively convinced me not to attempt to do chem. i mean, i did my science 11. i'm not short on credits. and i don't need it, as far as i know anyway, for my future. it makes sense not to do it. y'know...it probably would've made even more sense not to take it to begin with...but hey, i had to try and make things difficult. i want coffee. but....if i have coffee, i won't sleep. maybe, it's just because i looked at the box for my grinder. maybe...i dunno. i'm going to take a shower, because it feels more important than the fact than the hockey...and maybe if i'm quick i'll be back in time for the end of the game. |