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heads on a science apart... i have that weird feeling in the bottom of my stomach again. it doesn't exactly hurt...it's more an axious feeling. over what, i have no idea. other than that, i don't have a whole lot of other feeling. so, i'm eating. because, that's always the answer to every problem.... i found the last bit of a blizzard in my freezer, finished that, and now i've moved onto rice cakes and orange juice. i wasn't even hungry to begin with. i...i...i can't write sentences. that's probably why i haven't written a whole lot. (that part of your guess on what i've been up to was a little bit off. although, i do wish that i had been writing more.) for some reason, there's a whole bunch of stuff that i actually want/need to talk about, and none of it seems to be forming itself into any sort of sentence/paragraph-type grouping. i realized just now that it's been forever since i had a really good conversation with anyone. i suppose, as far as talking goes, meaghan and i had a lovely conversation...a week ago. but, as good as it was, it was mostly just catching up with each other. i mean, those are wonderful conversations....but i miss the kind of conversation where you sit with someone and just talk. not necessarily about anything that's going on...but just talk. where it's not hard, or planned, it just happens. meaghan and i are good again. she's at the hospital right now, because amber's in labour. which is cool. haha...she's going to be scarred by the process of watching a live birth...at least, if she's anything like me she will be... we're all good again. we dealt with the whole 'i hated you because...' situation that surrounded our friendship from somewhere before christmas until recently. it was refreshing really, and we both admitted that it really wasn't anyone's fault...just that it happened, and we're over that now. i haven't really been up to a whole lot of super-exciting things lately though. my mom gets here tomorrow. or today, seeing as it's after midnight. i'm excited, but already a little sad that she's going to have to leave. she's only here until the 24th, which i know isn't long enough. i plan on calling her in the morning, to wish her a safe trip and all that good stuff. i have no idea what i used to want to say. i did have something...i think. i've been reading the divine secrets of the ya-ya sisterhood. slowly. which is weird for me. but it's one of those times where i'm not really all about focusing on something for long periods of time...and the book seems to have so many places where there's something that divides it, whether it's a letter or a new chapter or a change of perspective, so i'm liking it a whole lot. i remember shannon recommending it to me a long time ago when she first read it...and then i saw the movie, and never got around to reading the book. until hil insisted that i borrow it because it was wonderful. so i did, and now i'm reading it. i tend to be slow with things like this...it's funny, because when i recommend a book to someone, i generally bug them about it constantly until they start reading it. i guess i just like things done my way... i'm listening to howie day at the moment. an acoustic cover of 'slide' by the goo goo dolls...it's great too. someone mentioned in their diary that he has a new song...i couldn't find it, so i downloaded a bunch of other random stuff by him instead. oh, and on the topic of music...hil, i talked to anthony on msn this afternoon, and he said he'd do what he could to get the mariana's trench song up as a download on die popstar. anyway, i'm tired. it's kinda early for that, but i think i want to read a little bit or something before i go to sleep. it probably won't happen. i'll pick up the book, and then put it down after half a page because i can't keep my eyes open anymore...kind of like what happened last night trying to finish the background i photoshopped for ryan. it's done now, and i'm fairly impressed with it. it turned out almost exactly the way i wanted it to, and seeing as it's the first thing i did all by myself, i'm proud of it. and as it turned out, i didn't get it done last night, and finished it this morning instead. *laughs* wow. what an appropriate song. go winamp. (it's 'sleep' by riley armstrong, for those of you who care. download it, it's good.) |